a fine madness

i've talked about it before. i want to be crazy. there are some types of schizophrenia that sounds absolutely amazing. i'm sure they would be a nuisance as well, but i'm crazy interested in them. seeing things like in "a beautiful mind" would be... wow! maybe that in itself is a little crazy, me wanting to be crazy. i was stumbling around the net yesterday and found this article. it's about how it seems to be fairly impossible to make great breakthroughs without being a bit insane. i wanna do that. i just don't know if i could sacrifice all the fun things i have now. maybe someday i'll be that eccentric guy who forgets where he lives but can do some crazy smart stuff to make up for it. maybe.